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Kathleen
It's been awhile since I
was a teenager, but those years were so traumatic to me that I remember them like they were yesterday. I have five kids of
my own now and two step daughters. Right now, two of my own kids are teenagers, ages 16 and 14.
I was one of those teenagers who doesn't know if their parents loved them or not.
I was one of those teenagers who:
- had an older boyfriend as a freshman in high school
- had parents who weren't home much
- was the oldest kid in the family
- drank alcohol, smoked pot and cigarettes
- started having sex too early and got pregnant
- was forced to have an abortion
- graduated early from high school
- got married at 18
Things got worse though:
I was one of those young adults who:
- got married thinking, "If it doesn't work out I'll just get a divorce!"
- had three children in their 20's
- didn't know how to financially support myself
- didn't know that my actions affected who my children would be as adults
- didn't like their own self very much
- drank too much
- had totally dysfunctional relationships
- allowed my husband to abuse me
- got divorced and remarried in the same year
It got even worse than that:
I was one of those people who:
- began to totally lose her self
- had no self esteem
- gave up all their power
- didn't protect my kids from abuse
- allowed herself to be abused mentally, verbally, physically and sexually
- had to give up her kids to ex-husbands because of an inability to earn a good enough wage
- had no life skills
- had no friends that could be counted on
- never lived close to family
As you can see, things kept getting continually
worse in my life. One day I picked up my two year old and I was nine months pregnant and I got on a bus and moved to a new
city where no one knew me.
I tried to start my life over again, but still...
I didn't know how and I was so hurt and wounded from a life of continual abuse and pain that I was just plain mentally ill,
unable to care for myself and my kids. I was so alone.
For everything I told you, there
is still so much more that I haven't told you. But I wanted to be happy so bad. I wanted my two teenagers who are my youngest
kids to live their life without all the unhappiness and pain I had. Right now I am trying to help my teens be everything I
wasn't. I have to think very hard to use the tools I've recently taught myself to teach them what they need to know.
I wanted to learn
how to love myself. I have never loved myself in my whole life - have you? Have you accepted who you are and made a conscious
choice to love yourself and take care of yourself first?
All I could do because I didn't have any energy
or support was to look out the window and watch the world doing whatever it was doing around me. I wasn't participating in
the world. I was just sitting inside of a safe place, which I had never done before, and watched life pass me by out the window.
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